For you, this is like feeling that you are living in punishment. You feel insecure when someone decides to put limits on your relationship. The idea of being tied down, of not being able to be yourself, of not being free terrifies you, to the point of running away as soon as you hear someone say the word 'commitment.' There are times when you struggle not to be like that, and you would like to find a way to overcome it, but it is tough for you. It is difficult for someone to fight against what really makes you happy, to fight against your freedom.