The truth is that you feel much more animated lately than before, but that does not mean that there are no longer worries in your life. What produces that anxiety is something that does not depend on you, and not being able to control it makes you get more on your nerves.
You want it to happen NOW, but it resists, and with that, your patience resists. Luckily you know how to deal with it, and even if you are on your nerves, you know that waiting will be the best option.
You have been looking for your happiness for a long time, and although you know that you are not happy right now, you have faith that you will be very soon.
Gemini, the best thing you can do right now is accept reality. Love yourself for what you have and what you don't have. Even if you don't like your life now, accepting it is something that will make you start to like it little by little.
You have a mission right now, and that mission is to find the strength you need to be happy.
You have to try to control your nerves, dear Gemini, and you cannot spend all day with that knot in your stomach. Yes, we know that things do not depend on you, but it does depend on you to learn to manage those nerves.
Stop worrying about something that you cannot control. Stop turning your mind because you will be unable to be calm if you continue like this.
Stop worrying about others and worrying about your happiness. Keep it up, Gemini. You are doing very well, do not lose faith, but do not despair about something that is not known when it will arrive.
You deserve your happiness, and you know it. You deserve to be happier than ever and enjoy everyone around you.